Daily Journal
Lord, have your way in me.
I don't know what I am doing.
I have many desires that come and go, rise and fall.
Only you are consistent and faithful.
There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death.
My flesh and body wants to feel good.
My spirit wants to know you.
My spirit wants to be completely bare before you and indeed with and in you in every way.
Yet my flesh, wants nothing more than to be you, to be god.
My flesh is easily mislead.
Lord, you are good, and all of my life, indeed all of life itself has it's sustenance in you.
Please lead me beyond what my flesh wants. It wants nothing more than itself.
My flesh, indeed, my heart is so deceived.
Please don't give up on me.
Please don't let me lead a life that has me at the center.
I don't know how to lose my life.
And in this, it seems like there is no hope.
I know there is hope, but it seems like there is no hope.
My eyes lead me astray.
My thinking lets me down.
You have put it on my heart to confess and be transparent.
You have given me a desire to communicate and express.
I want glory, and I want to know you.
For this, I cannot have both.
I really want to know you.
I want to sense your delight in me.
Please don't let me lead my own life.
Instead, help me to trust in you and find rest.
You have known me all my life, and even before I was born.
After I leave this world, you will still cherish every moment I was alive here, and the thoughts you had of me before I was even conceived.
Your depth of love for me is deeper than I realise, and I truly don't value or appreciate you and your ways.
I have sinned, Lord, and continue to sin.
I don't know how to stop.
Though I know your grace is sufficient.
How can I truly humble myself and let you receive the glory and delight that is your due?
Holy Spirit grant me wisdom from heaven today, and lead me in the way everlasting.
Lead me in Jesus, and let my hope not be in the things of this world.
Let my eyes be fixed upon heaven, upon the eternal King, and Kingdom, upon righteousness eternal.
You have indeed given me a heart, perhaps not too unlike that of your servant David.
A heart that has faith, yet is somewhat aware of my own weaknesses.
I have pride from which is full of deceit.
I don't know
I don't know
And yet I do know.
Lord, grant me your eyes, your ears, your joy, and your heart, and let me lose my life for your sake.
Do I truly care about people?
Even if I did, it is nowhere near that of your care, and this is indeed what is needed.
Don't let me settle for love that comes from me.
You ARE love.
Only you can overflow in me for your glory and the true eternal blessing of my neighbours.
If I were to write a book about life, it would be a silly book.
You are the author and perfecter of my faith. Lead my eyes to you Lord Jesus this day.
Today is the day of salvation!
